random rain

May. 1st, 2009 03:39 pm
herophelia: (loved stars too fondly to fear the night)
I was walking to a diner with my uncle and it started pouring, as it tends to do, so we ducked under an awning. There was a sheet of rain coming off the edge of the canvas. Onerupublic's stop and stare came on my blackberry radio. It seemed significant at the time. I'm sure it wasn't, really, but it gave me this swell of... Something

Now I'm sitting in the diner next to a window with raindrops streaming down it. I miss feeling like I truly belong. I remember a time when I was absolutely sure of my place in the universe, and everything around me. I could feel life working. Now, more often than not, I just feel the cracks on the inside where I know things aren't as water-tight as they seem.

I don't want to be able to feel all the places where things don't work. I just want to feel like myself.

Living for inspiration,
herophelia: (ayu - showtime baby!)
i've got bangs. not very short ones. they're pretty long and not incredibly obvious, but it's still a change for me.

here there be crappy pictures of brand new hair )

i had a huge fight with my mother right before i went to my appointment,so i was already in a weird mood. i just let meri do whatever she wanted. right at the very end she said something about wishing i'd go for bangs, and i just said "go ahead and do it, if you have time" so the last 90 seconds of my appointment yielded fun little wispy things that i have no idea how to tame. there's no more weight to keep them on the side i want them on. it's time to re-invest heavily in bobby pins and head bands.

i'm not 100% sure i like it yet. it probably takes some getting used to. i think i like it, though. i'm almost positive i like it.

living for inspiration,
herophelia: (bouncy ball of doom will KILL you)
i got hit in the head with a giant plastic dump truck full of candy.

it's easter-time again, and for some reason the good folks over at albertson's figure that what every little boy desperately needs this joyous holiday season is a plastic truck that he can ride that is also chock full of chocolate. i was sitting on the bottom shelf waiting for my little sister's prescription to be filled, and a stock guy in the other aisle was putting boxes of something on the top shelf, and i guess one of them fell down the back or whatever. point being, when he pushed one of these boxes back to make room for another one, he pushed a truck full of candy off of the shelf on the other side and on to my head.

down side - i'm bleeding

up side - i have grocery merchandise credits

luckily it hit kind of on the side of my scalp, so any scar i will end up with will be easily covered by hair. still, though... ouch much? my sister is sharing her pain pills with me, and we're both laying in bed together watching wall-e

and just so this post isn't entirely made of complaining...
click me and then cry. i cried. i couldn't stop myself. and for people who know me, you know that i really do not enjoy crying. especially where other people can see me. it's so sweet, though. seriously. read it.

living for inspiration,

music meme

Mar. 3rd, 2009 09:59 pm
herophelia: (Default)
1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.

[livejournal.com profile] vr2lbast gave me the letter C. i have 704 songs that start with the letter C, and could listen to them for nearly 48 hours. picking just 5 and rejecting 699? not as easy as you might think. seriously, i swapped songs out so many times because i found something i wanted to share more. it's hard paring down everything to fit in only 5 spots.

so here we are, in no particular order...

1. Classifieds - The Academy Is...
i was going to go with checkmarks, but i changed my mind at the last minute. i really love this song, actually. [livejournal.com profile] veggie, i miss you. not sure why that just came to mind, but it did.

2. Cemetary Gates - The Smiths
does this one really need to be explained? no? good. ^_^

3. Come Together - Joe Cocker (from the movie "Across The Universe")
[livejournal.com profile] a_leprechaun, i miss you, too. come visit california again. **wibbles**

4. Come Out Of The Shade - The Perishers

5. Changes - David Bowie

i haven't listened to phantom planet in a long time. i don't know why. i should toss them into the rotation more often.
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When you see this, post your favorite poem in your journal.

Self Pity

I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.

D. H. Lawrence
herophelia: (Default)
all right, mac people. i had a total freak out moment this morning. you know, i almost thought it was a dream at the time - some bizzarely weirdly real dream, because it happened shortly after i fell asleep for an hour sitting up. not sitting up in a chair, mind, but sitting indian style on a bed. never happened to me before. was pretty damn weird. but i digress. i got the spinning tie-dye ball of suck while in AIM and went to force quit it and there was more spinning of fail, and then everything just stopped. so i cursed to myself and held down the power button... which did nothing. nothing at all. i was mashing on that thing for a good five minutes. well, i did get the screech that tells you you've been holding down the power button too long, but the screen didn't change. if i'd been able to look up where exactly the battery is on a macbook air i would have gone in and disconnected the thing. as it was, i had to unplug it and just wait for the battery to die. when it finally did and i started it back up again, for a moment i got the exact same screen i had when it froze, and i nearly pissed my pants, but then it went dark and restarted properly, although extreeeeemely slowly.

has anything like this ever happened to anyone before? i'm really concerned, but i won't be here long enough to send my laptop away for service, and i like the guys at my mac store at home. i trust them. i've never had anything this bad happen to a computer of mine before, though. at least, nothing that didn't end in crispy death. i guess i'm just looking for a bit of comfort.

living for inspiration,


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